I remember mama

ON this big production called Mother’s Day, a whole nation of sons and daughters paused to remember their mothers.

My first knowledge of the world about life came to me through my senses, in so far as they were directed by my mother. She was the first one I saw, the first thing I felt, and the first thing upon which I depended on security the day I was born when everything made me cry, in a desperate wail because of hunger, light and anger.

The memory of my mother and her teachings were, after all, the only capital, I have made my way.
I remember that day I guided her into her flight gate. She turned around, waved at us smiling blithely, cheering us with her mirth. She was the most beautiful woman, I have ever seen.
It was the last time I saw my mother alive.

I missed her until I ached. I missed her steadfast faith in a loving unseen God — her complete love for her family anchored on the dictum “love one another” by giving all, asking little and accepting less. There never was a woman like her.

She was a rich and treasured gift from God, who taught us what real love means. It meant sharing the hurts, hopes, joys and homecomings. When we grew older and went on our separate ways, she said love was staying when it would be easier to leave, defending when others accused, holding on when you’re tempted to let go, and most importantly, letting go when you desperately want to hold on.

She was an accomplished gardener that made orchids bloom in the moonlight; the roses grew even in winter. But her five girls were her fertile field. In the soul of the human heart, she was perfect.

In her children’s hearts, she had tenderly planted the seed of love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, gentleness and self-control — courageously protecting that precious field from destruction and uninvited strangers. When spiritual or physical tribulations threatened her brood, she worked with a bleeding hand to protect the roots of life from its violent storms as she struggled through seasons of growth and celebrated unharmed growth as she weeded, watered, plowed and prayed.

When our hearts got broken or our dreams fell apart, she would remind us that God holds the key to real happiness. He is the rebuilder of dashed hopes and shattered dreams. Her cheerful heart and encouragement were transfusions of courage.

Her weekend mornings were meant for special things and anybody who messed with the divine plan was placing her health and eternal happiness in great danger. Yet, when the grand and great-grandchildren came, she could find joy in the Saturday and Sunday mornings filled with scampering feet raucous laughter and squeals of “Apong!”

She relished her home straightened just yesterday and strewn with toys and coloring books today. She was always a tender nurse beside the bed of a sick child, a diplomatic disciplinarian, and a mighty warrior against the focus of evil that threatened her domain.

She taught us that laughter would lengthen your life span, improve your marriage and increase your humility. Of her funeral…oh, she would have liked it. It had the decorum and dash. Grief borne nobly was her very ways.

It was full of children, laborers, lawyers and judges. It had a marvelous eyeful jumble of the mighty and the obscure, with the sounds of the day smashingly appropriate. The tolling of the bells and her loved ones’ silent lament blended with elegiac Schubert, Tosseli, Romberg, Mendelsohn, Debussy and the lugubrious songs of the lost love of Nicanor Abelardo and Buencamino.

She would have seen every person she had helped, the simple folks of labor, their employees, and her grieving friends, each one bearing tales and evoking her so vividly that tears splashed on the red carpet and benches of the parlor. They all wept but nobody broke down.

I believe that God has a special place for her and that she and her friends are happy and singing “I love thee”; Shubert’s “Ave Maria”, “When I Grow Too Old to Dream,” and “Ay, Ay Kalisud.”

“Come on,” she would coax me. “You sing alto, it goes like this, and I’ll sing soprano.” She was a coloratura soprano. I’d rush to her with joy because I know how happy it will make her, as I accompanied her on the piano. She would sing a capella, “Trees,” “ Indian Love Call” and “Nasaan ka Irog” and “La Golondrina,” “None But the Lonely Hearts,” “On Wings of Song.“

And they were, you know, some of the most beautiful songs I’ve ever heard.

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